What's Weighing On My Mind This Week

Do you ever have a week where you feel like you just have too much on your mind? I'm there this week. I feel the weight of the world on my shoulders. I think it's just a passing mood and I'm now focused on trying to get through my mental struggles. Although this can be hard to admit to, here are some of the things I'm struggling with now:

*Money

We aren't necessarily struggling financially but prior to changing from a full-time employee to an extremely part-time employee we were on the fast track to becoming debt-free (including our mortgage). Not having the extra income has increased our debt payoff plan by several years. I feel so blessed to be able to be with my child every day, but I'm struggling to accept that this decision extends when we will eliminate our debt once and for all.

*Mom Guilt

I feel like I have been ending each day this week with lots of mom guilt weighing on me. Pregnancy isn't an excuse but I'm far enough along now that I'm moving much slower, have less energy, and find moving around much more challenging. My child is an active toddler with a wide range of fluctuating emotions and I am challenged lately with keeping my emotions in check. 

I feel that society puts a lot of pressure on being this supermom that does everything and has her child involved in everything, all while keeping a clean house. I'm constantly reminded I can't measure up to that ideal, although I can admit that I try my hardest.

* My Husband

We all go through our own struggles in life. It's hard for me to watch my husband go through a hard time that I can't change. Work has been extremely demanding for him and when he's home he is trying to finish our basement before baby #2 arrives. This leaves little personal and family time. I pray that I am meeting his needs and supporting him in the way he needs me to during this time.

*Baby #2

I am so excited for our new baby to come but I am also so nervous for the transition. I don't do well with change. Any change. I've always been very resistant and struggle with adjusting to life changes. It's been over a year since we bought and moved to our new house and I would say I'm still adjusting to that! I am just thinking about the changes coming up and trying to keep myself open to this time in my life.

This seems like such a downer post in many ways! These worries and struggles are real for me, but I know they won't last. They do reflect my current season of life, which will change.

On a lighter note, my daughter has quite the personality coming out! She is known as miss bossy pants at our house and loves to accessorize with jewelry, hats, and her shoes. She loves picking out her outfits and does a really good job most of the time! I'm so loving getting to know her personality!

Oh, and I'm totally in love with her mess of curly hair.